"It's strange, because with your levels where they're at, you should be able to conceive...no problem." My fertility doctors told me this a handful of times, and each time they did, I had to fight rolling my eyes. Because there we were...two years trying on our own and six months into doing fertility treatments: WITH NO RESULTS. No pregnancies, no miscarriages, nothing.

For some reason, for as long as I can remember, I have felt a fear of being infertile. As a child I was fascinated by the movie "Dumbo" and according to my mom it was not only for that brave little elephant with big ears, but I especially felt connected to Dumbo’s mom. This beautiful Disney classic opens with all animals in the circus receiving their babies delivered by the storks, except for Dumbo’s mom. She and only she, stays childless and had to watch all her fellow elephants cuddle their little ones. How ironic that this same thing would happen to me later in life. But the movie doesn’t end there. Dumbo’s mom receives her wonderful baby through a special delivery a little later on in the story and thank god the same thing would also happen to me in my life later on. 

My husband Nathan and I married in 2011 and spent our first year of marriage traveling. When it came time to start a family, we quickly realized it wasn't as easy as we had thought it would be. After five years of trying and a whole lot of disappointment, we decided it was time to get help. During those five years, we kept our struggle private and played it off that we were content being a cool aunt and uncle. Being an elementary school teacher, I loved on my students each year and felt as if they were my own! We also got a puppy during this time to fill the

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