For a first grade assignment I wrote a book titled “When I grow up I want to be a mother.” It was my dream to be a mom from a very young age. I grew up with six siblings and when we got married my husband and I said we wanted at least 6 kids … maybe 8.
You grow up, meet someone, fall in love, get married and have children! That is what they tell you as a little kid of how your life should progress, but what do you do when you grow up and that plan doesn’t happen? When that last part doesn’t become reality?
I have dreamed of being a Mommy my whole life. When asked in school what I wanted to be when I grew up, that was always my answer.
I met my husband Nate in 2008, and we were married in 2011. I was turning 30 the next year, so we decided we’d take a year to be newlyweds and after my 30th birthday I would go off birth control.
A few months before my 24th birthday, and after a long struggle with anorexia, my doctor told me that I would most likely never be able to have children of my own.